Continuing with my previous post...

About 20 seconds after I submitted my last post a dear friend of mine poked her head into my room and said very excitedly, "I have your wedding invitation!"  She returned a moment later and placed the crisp decorated envelope on my desk and just looked at me waiting for me to share in her excitement.  And that's exactly what God wanted.  I've been struggling a lot lately with finding a balance between allowing myself to feel sad/upset about the happenings of the last few months (which lie deeper than the few aspects I've shared with y'all) and not feeling like I'm wallowing in self pity and indulging in unproductive emotions.  It's been difficult because I can't hide my emotions, and I can't hold things in.  When I try to bury my feelings and  not experience them it drives me crazy and then I explode into a giant puddle of intense emotions that no one can handle (not even myself).  I like to identify what's bothering me, dealing with/experiencing the accompanying emotion (anger, jealousy, hurt etc), and moving on.  Tying this back to my story, Virginia dropped off this beautiful wedding invitation that she was absolutely thrilled to give me and it was the perfect opportunity for me to not be upset.  I felt like it was God's way of saying here's some balance.  You've allowed yourself to get upset, to feel sad, to write about it, and now it's time to move on.  And so I did.  While to many of you this probably seems like a very trivial accomplishment, it was one I was very happy to make.