I promise to make one real and grown up decision by myself for myself within one year from today.
I've never actually made a real decision about my life. I let my parents choose my school. I let them decide when I graduate. I let Kyle dictate my summers. Oh and I depend on everybody else for just about everything else. You see I'm terrified of making decisions. Real decisions. Everyday decisions are even difficult for me. That's why every date we go on, Kyle choses my meal, picks the movie, picks the color, EVERYTHING! Needless to say, making decisions that affect the rest of my life are completely overwhelming. So. I simply don't make them. I'm terrified of making the wrong decision so I'm always asking other people what they think and letting them choose for me. Plus, that way if it goes wrong, it's not my fault, it's their fault for telling me the wrong choice when I trusted them. Dumb, I know.
Well not anymore!
I am 20 gosh darn it and I will learn to start making my own decisions.
I will make one terribly important life-decision by the end of next year. I'm promising myself.
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