blabbering about my future, imput would be helpful.

I'm contemplating getting my MD/PHD instead of just an MD.  Not sure yet but research in healthcare is always needed an completely fascinating.  Maybe I could cure diabetes, or children's arthritis, or develop a new treatment for cancer.  Who knows the possibilities are endless!  This is only a small thought in my head at the moment, but definitely one worth considering.  I'm also considering getting my PHD in public health.  I worked at the UNT's grad school for public health this summer and it was really interesting.  There was a lot of boring stuff, but a ton of really interesting stuff as well.  How cool would it be to go into down town Dallas, Ft. Worth, needy communities, and everyday suburbia to inform the public on how to stay safe, how to prevent disease, health lifestyle choices to reduce risk for heart disease, diabetes,breast cancer, cervical cancer ect?  I could basically research how the public views certain medical/health t, opic, then address the problem areas I find.  I still don't know if I could give up treating the needy, going into work everyday to look at the coolest stuff like oozing, pus filled wounds, broken bones, a dilated cervix, ect.  I say this not to be insensitive or gross but because I honestly find those things fascinating and I really like helping people.  Anyway this entry is only a string of thoughts as they pop into my mind and things that I've been thinking about lately.  I'm not sure where I'll go (though I will say my main goal is still just an MD) but it's scary knowing that I have to chose.  What if I make the wrong choice?  What if I decide public health and I was meant to be an internal medicine specialist at Mansfield Methodist?  What if, what if, what if... Now I know why my mom said she hates "what ifs"  She said "what if's" don't happen, except I know that sometimes they do.   OK, I'm no longer making sense.  Time for a shower, bed, and some prayers.